Thank you all so much...i know this comes to us all, just wasn't expecting it so soon..although i did say to my partner i have always thought he would be the first to go...his energy...its like he was too big for this world..never satisfied.
I just took him back to the zoozone..ive had his wrapped up on the sofa all day...i gently wrapped him in tissue and have placed him under his igloo....he never once didn't sleep in it, hopefully i can get myself together to go buy a plant and bury him under it...
and rach- yes...at least he came back last night...he had planned not to (hence the note) and i rang saying some choice things that after 8 years how could he just leave me to coem to our little man gone...he said he was planning to come back anyway..however he left today, i have everyones cages to clean out, perhaps pumpkin remembered it was the full zoozone clean due bless him...
i feel i want to cry...i feel so selfish because i have and can give plenty of tears over my partner...yet why cant i with pumpkin? maybe it hasn't settled in yet, the colour seems to have drained from him so quickly, my gorgeous satin boy, i truely hope he stuffing all the markies he can find up at the bridge!
Just wish i had managed to take him to a show..i promised him he wouldnt be the only one without a rosette as he was recovering for kingswinford
Thanks everyone...i cant say how much strength this forum has given me...and some amazing friends i have made and a few have been lucky enough to meet and spend time with. We all have our own issues and perhaps i shouldnt be so open about mine, but thanks seriously....those of you that know me outside the forum or on fb....just keep nudging me yeh....im not the strongest person atm.
Id like to share some pics, most of you that have been around here will prob remember them
Love of his old grey (yak) wheel
His love of monkey barring that got him into too much trouble!
His love of pouching too many large things!
This picture makes us chuckle...he never struggled lol
This was him when he first chose me
I'll miss you