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I'm sorry but when you have a pet you must be able to provide the care it needs in terms of medical help. If that means giving rest away from pain and suffering then you have to be strong and brave and make that decision on behalf of that animal which depends on you for everything. This is the price we pay for sharing the life of any pet. It's never easy but if the vet recommends it then you cannot let your little one suffer.
Look to your heart and find strength to make the decision when and if your little one needs it. Remember if you don't take him to a vet he may be suffering and you would not let him suffer as he is clearly loved.