[Ria P]

I'm totally stunned and can't take it in.

I found Gertie dead in her sand jar. Took me a while to realize that she was dead because she looked asleep.

No mark, no sign of a struggle, in her usual sleeping position, ears up, eyes and mouth closed but not breathing and no sign of life.

Anaphylactic shock to baytril or a heart attack are my only plausable explainations. It was sudden and she wouldn't have suffered but Gertie was only 13 month old.

I can't even grieve or get emotional because i can't believe it yet. I put her in a carrier on top of the freezer in case she wakes up but the rational side of me tells me that she won't.