It would be such a shame for you to go, as you have seen by all the care and support that members have poured out for you and Smoky over the last few days, this is a very friendly and caring forum.
If you have been sent a message, or read a post that you feel is against the rules or the ethos of the forum, or that you have found very upsetting, you can always ask one of the moderators for assistance in how to handle it.
This is a great place for hamster lovers, and as you clearly love hamsters hopefully it can remain a place for you
