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Old 09-11-2018, 06:19 AM   #1
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My sweet Lil has passed on.

01/04/2017 - 10/09/2018

As some of you know, about two weeks ago I discovered Lil had some trouble walking on her front right leg and that it was very swollen.
The vet offered pain relief and advised me to monitor Lil to see if it improved on it own.

Unfortunately it did not.
In the last week, her health has rapidly declined. The swelling worsened, she used the leg less. She barely came out of her house. She wasn't grooming herself. Her eyes become crusted and were often sealed closed. She wasn't her bright, energetic and inquisitive self anymore.

Yesterday morning I knew I needed to arrange for her to be put to sleep.

I called the Vets I had previously been to and they said the earliest they could see me would be tomorrow (today) morning.
Part of me thought I should call other Vets to see if they had space to see me today, but I decided to keep Lil at home with me for one last night.

I spent the whole evening with her on my lap/ resting on my chest in a bed and blanket.
She was quite cold to the touch so I made a (not so) hot water bottle, which she enjoyed snuggling up on.
I gave her more pain medication and some baby food from time to time.
I just lay with her in my bedroom with fairy lights and soft music on. It was incredibly peaceful.
My boyfriend arrived home from work (he works till quite late) and came and cuddled with us too.

I had my hand on her, stroking her. At about 11pm I noticed her heart rate was become so faint I could barely feel it.
I put her into a padded fleece doughnut bed I had made for her, which supported her completely. She let herself completely relax into it. She looked so comfortable.
She then took her final breaths. She did not seem to be in discomfort or distress.
It was wonderfully peaceful and i'm so glad we opted to have her at home for her final moments instead of in a vet practice being put to sleep.
After she had gone I smiled while crying because she looked so beautiful and graceful in her bed there.

I already miss her dreadfully.
I have thought 'I should go and check on Lil' multiple times today and then have that stomach drop moment when I remember all over again..

Lil was such a wonderful girl who has gone too soon, but had a wonderful life and a peaceful death with the ones that loved her dearly.

Here she is approximately half an hour before she passed.
She used the last of her energy to crawl up to snuggle on my shoulder.

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I love you dear Lil X
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Old 09-11-2018, 06:24 AM   #2
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I am so very sorry. What an honour for you to walk a little way along the path to the bridge with her. I am glad you got that little twilight sparkle of peace with her. She was beautiful and so much loved.
Run free at the bridge Lil and send a rainbow or a white feather from your angel wings to your family.
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Old 09-11-2018, 08:00 AM   #3
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I am so, so sorry. I just can't believe she couldn't make it through her injury. But now she will make it to the bridge... And you were there for her a couple steps of the way... Hugs and blessings from me and Hamper to heal your shattered heart.

Run free at the bridge Lil~
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Old 09-11-2018, 08:18 AM   #4
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So glad she went to the bridge full of love and knowing she was loved.
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Old 09-11-2018, 10:33 AM   #5
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Oh Beth, I am very sorry indeed at Lil's passing. How much she loved you and the close bond you shared is shown by that huge effort she made to reach your shoulder and snuggle there. That is truely amazing. She had a peaceful passing at home surrounded by love and warmth. That is what we all want for our little ones.
Play well at the bridge dearest Lil. There are so many heart hams to play with there.
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Old 09-11-2018, 12:09 PM   #6
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I'm so very sorry your lovely Lil has gone to the bridge now, I can imagine how much you must be missing her already. I'm glad she was able to go peacefully & you could share her last moments as she passed knowing how much she was loved. Your bond was a very precious thing & she will live on forever in your heart now.
Hugs to you.

Run free & play well at the bridge Lil.
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Old 09-11-2018, 06:07 PM   #7
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I’m so sorry Beth. This was such a sweet sweet memorial and I got very teary eyed when she used her last energy to climb up on your shoulder. You two had such the bond. I really hoped she would make it and I feel so so bad. She was such a lucky girl to have you as her mom. You did lots for her and I’m sure she appreciated it. I understand how hard it is to lose a ham and I’m sending gigantic hugs to you during this hard time and little kisses from Libby. Xxx
We will miss you dearly, Lil. Your mom loved you to pieces. Xxx
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Old 09-11-2018, 08:17 PM   #8
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I am so sorry to hear of Lil's passing, when I read these heart rending posts it does rather give me a lump in my old throat, I do feel for you.
I am also glad that Lil passed with her dearest loved ones, she clearly loved you to use the last of her strength to snuggle next to you.
Lil, run free and just a bit wild at the Bridge little one, there are so many wonderful hams there to welcome you, RIP little Lil.xx
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Old 09-12-2018, 07:06 AM   #9
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Really sorry to hear this. Lovely that you could be there during her final moments. Rest in peace Lil.
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Old 09-13-2018, 05:35 AM   #10
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Thank you to all of you for your well wishes and thoughts for sorry Lil. It really is so heart warming to read.

Today is the first day that it's properly sinking in that I won't see her again
I'm still coming into my room and glancing over to see her in her cage (I haven't been able to go through it yet) and still setting bits of vegetables aside for her when cooking dinner.

My partner and I are going to bury her on Saturday in nearby woodlands. She's currently 'on ice'. Sorry if that is distressing to hear.
It took me a long time before I could put her away there.
But it was the right choice to have time to prepare and both be available.
I'm hoping Saturday will help with how I'm feeling...
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