Pymypuff...

[Pygmypuff]

This might be quite an upsetting post, so if anyone has recently lost a hamster or is still grieving you may not want to read this.

Grief is a strange thing; I lost my little one, Pygmypuff, one year ago. I was so ill myself at the time that it never really quite hit me, and hasn't since then... until now. I'm back at home after being is hospital for seven months and I just recently got a new hamster, Bubblesky, and am starting to build a new bond with Honeyfur. I think being around so many hamsters now has just completely smacked me around the face with how sudden and heartbreaking Pygmypuff's death was. As some of you may remember, she was attacked by my cat, and suffered a cut to her eye. She was well on the mend, drinking and eating fine, seeming to get back to normal - and then she passed away. It must have been the shock, the whole incident was so terrifying for her. I didn't even cry at the time.

And now, here I sit, the tears filling my eyes. It is unbearable to think my little one has gone. She wasn't "just a hamster". She was my baby. She was my angel. She was my tiny one. Her little face cheered me up whenever my mental health was dragging me down. She would chase me around my room, climb up my feet and legs, play fetch with me like a little puppy. Her coat was the most gorgeous colouring, all those mixtures of greys and whites, and in the winter it lightened and was even more stunning than ever. She was the most beautiful, intelligent hamster I'd ever met. And so friendly, so calm; she never ever bit me, she came when I called her name, she followed me round, she'd let me cuddle her and groom her and tickle her stomach.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. I feel sick. She was only with me for a year, such a short amount of time, it wasn't fair. It wasn't fair at all. I don't want to accept she's gone. Today, I just don't want to face a world with her not in it. I never thought I'd love a hamster so much. I didn't believe you could grieve over a hamster this much either. I just want to hold her one more time, see her little face and paws and ears one more time, kiss her one more time. I'm blaming things for her death. Not just myself, but her cage, her stupid cage, the gaps in between the bars must have been too big for her if she managed to get out. She was so damn tiny.

God, I miss her. I really do. I don't know how to explain it, my bond with her was so utterly unbreakable. She was, as I say, my little girl, my little one. I miss her like hell.

I wish, I really wish, I believed in some sort of hamster heaven. I wish I believed that I'll see her again. Maybe, maybe she'll be reborn, I sort of believe in that. Maybe she has already. Maybe she's Honeyfur, or Bubblysky. Maybe that gorgeous little girl lives in someone else's hamster's life.

But for now, my angel, sleep tight. Sleep easy. You're buried in our garden, under a magnificent rose, so even if you're not reincarnated or whatever, you're helping a beautiful plant to grow.

Goodnight, Pymgypuff.

[Gimleyand Meeko]

I am so sorry PygmyPuff, she must and still is a special hamster. 1 year with a hamster is short but all the memories you have made are worth a lot and I know you will treasure them forever and ever. She is an amazing ham one that we will never forget as she was amazingly kind, gentle, loving, gorgeous and not forgetting cute.

PygmyPuff we will surely miss you.

[Pygmypuff]

Thank you for your kind words Gimley, that means a lot to me.

[Gimleyand Meeko]

That's ok PygmyPuff.

Pygmypuff we will miss you so much and we love you.

[Vicki]

I am so sorry. I do believe that we are eventually reunited with those that we loved here on earth, human & otherwise.

[Thin Lizzy]

Pygmypuff,
I totally understand how you're feeling, stop blaming yourself. You loved her and you cared for her after the cat attack. Grief is strange, you can be fine for ages and all of a sudden it hits you, take time to grieve and also take comfort in your new ham.
Thinking of You & Sending you big hugs xxx

[Pygmypuff]

Thank you Lizzy, that's such a sweet thing for you to say. Sending big hugs back x

[souffle]

I am so sorry for your loss His memory is very special and he is always with you in your heart,
Play well at the bridge Pygmypuff x

[Pygmypuff]

Thank you souffle, and thank you Vicki

[Aisling and hamster]

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's always so hard to loose a furry friend. I hope you get well soon. At least you know that you gave your hamsters a wonderful life.