I apologise in advance, this will be a long post.
It's almost been a week since I said goodbye to my little pokemon. What with the Pokemon GO app being released, and Pikachus name being spread over the internet. It has been extremely hard for me.
I've finally gathered the strength to say goodbye here, the memorial page. The place where it is final, your baby has left to play on the giant wheel on the sky.. and they wont be coming back.
All week I've been looking over toward the empty space where her cage was, hoping that it was all a bad dream.. but every time the space is empty.
When I bought Pikachu, I didn't expect to get so attached to her. She was originally a 'test' pet to see if I could handle rats in the future, to test my dedication. To test how good of a pet-mum I would be. Oh boy did she ruin that plan.
I fell in love with her the moment I saw her, I knew that I wanted a little cream/yellow hamster that I could name Pikachu and when I walked in to the shop she was the only Syrian left.. sitting under her house.. yellow tinted with black tipped ears. She looked up at me and stared at me the whole time I was filling in the form to buy her, it was almost as if she knew we were destined to be together. Owner and pet. Hamster Mum and baby.
Throughout her hamster childhood I was told and believed she was a he, I originally wanted a boy as, being in my bedroom, I didn't want the heat smell going on. Again, she ruined that plan.
I thought she would be a cheap pet, she ruined that plan too. I spoiled her rotten.
I thought she would be a clean pet, with such a small living space. You guessed it.. she ruined that plan too.
Everything about her was nothing like I had expected or planned, but I found that it was everything I wanted.
And now she is gone.
She was a pain in the butt. A bar biter, chew cruncher, poop thrower, water spiller.. you name any bad habit and she probably did it.. but she would never hurt you. She would let anyone handle her, she even played with my dog and cat. She would run fell pelt in to them in her ball and knock them over, it was hilarious. She had no fear. My dog would go in to see her every day. He waits in my room now, he doesn't seem to understand that she wont be coming back.
Would I do it all again, knowing that she was a pain in the butt? Without a second thought I would.
When she fell ill two weeks ago, I did everything I could to take her pain away. I tried so hard to save her. I spent almost £100 on vitamins, vet trips and medicine. I couldn't say goodbye, and she didn't want to go. She was fighting, I couldn't let her down. She hadn't even reached two. She seemed to progress the first few days, she was using her wheel again and she didn't loose her appetite at all even on the medication. It was so sudden.
Friday morning I gently woke her up by rustling her treat jar, and she was the same as the night before. I put her on the 'medicine and eye bath spot' where she likes to sit and did my nurse routine. I knew something was wrong, she kept falling asleep. I held her in my hands, she fell asleep. I put her back in her cage to see if she would walk back to her bed, she walked to her toilet and fell asleep face first in the sand. I picked her up out of the sand, wiped away the grains with a cotton bud. Wiped the sand from her mouth gently. I held her in my hands, and that would be the last time I would pick her up alive. She began gasping, and I started to break down. She passed away in my hands. I think that has been the hardest part of all this, I've never seen an animal pass away before. I can't get the image out of my head. My baby passing away in my hands. So very tiny, so very soft. My Pikachu.
I have so many wonderful photos and memories, and I know she loved me. Even through the nasty medicines she still came up to the cage door to see me. She waited to see me before passing away, I know that. She went so suddenly when I held her, it was like she needed my comfort.
I will always love you my little Pikachu. There's so many stories and photos I could post but I will be greedy and save them all for myself, for you to touch my heart so much in such a short space of time.. it is magical.
Thank You for getting me through hard times.. Thank You for everything.
Rest peacefully.
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A funny video of Pika, from Easter time.
Rest peacefully, Pikachu.
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