Walnut

[Kiraff]

Walnut, my super precious baby girl passed away over an hour ago. She passed away very fast. She never had a mean bone in her body. She was not a biter, and was always very affectionate. I can't even begin to describe how amazing she was and is.
Walnut, God bless your soul.

[ANGELBABIES]

Rest and play well at the bridge little Walnut. So sorry she had to go Kiraff - but how amazing was this that you could hold the little fluff as she made her way across to the bridge. How very comforting for both of you and she left knowing she was forever encompassed in your love. Take care xxx

[caro317]

Very sorry you lost Walnut. I'm sure she had a happy life with you. Rest well little one x

[Kiraff]

Thank you both. Angelbabies, your post was so touching it made me cry. Thank you so much. Everyone one else that read that was very touched. My usual stoic fiancee has been having break downs frequently. That was not only MY little best friend, companion, part of the reason I woke up in the morning, and my daughter, that was HIS daughter as well.

We had decided to never have children of our own. I have health issues that would compromise my well being if I got pregnant, plus I find human children obnoxious :O No offense anyone who has kids. So, our animals are just our fur babies, we don't care that they aren't the same species as us. We try to do everything we can to make them happy. Heck, if sawing off my own leg would have saved Walnut I would have done it no hesitation.

I was screaming so much after she passed away that one of our cats was meowing constantly trying to get into my face. I continued crying and screaming..well I screamed really loud, and then he bite my foot. First time ever he has done that.

She went very fast. I can't believe how fast she went. It makes me feel like I didn't catch something, because she was like the image of perfect health for her whole life.

I love that hamster so much I practically worshiped her. I would do anything to make her happy. Seeing her happy made me SO happy myself. I was always trying to think of new things I could do to make her even happier. She was also the highlight of my day lol. When she got up and I saw her it was the highlight of my day. I couldn't have been any happier or more excited when I saw her. She was my queen and I lived to serve.
Sadly, I hope I'm not like a bee and I die after losing my queen .. or is that an ant thing?

[Pouches]

I'm so sorry for you loss, always keep in mind that she might be gone but will never be forgotten. I hope all the memories will bring you both comfort in the low times.

[Pompompoms]

At times there is something under the surface that it is completely impossible to see, or something that just comes from no where without warning. Walnut was so clearly well loved and cared for, so had there been an issue there, no doubt you would have spotted it. Try not to punish yourself with thoughts that there was anything that could be done.

Play well lovely Walnut xx

[Kiraff]

Thank you. I'm scared that she was scared to die and didn't want to die.
I've had a lot of years with chinchillas and am pretty good and finding when something's wrong with my animals. I just miss her so much that I can't stand it. I adore her and would have done anything for her.
I treasure the time I had wither so much more because of how short it was. I STILL can't find a urn I'm happy with =, so she's still in the freezer TT-TT What do I do? It's so hard every day not want to open the freezer and take her out of that box and cling to her like need her to breathe. Bad idea, so don't worry I won't, but I want to be with her so bad again it's killing me. My other animals don't give a #$%# about how I feel -__-
You have no idea how bad I need a ferret right now to make me feel needed.

[souffle]

I am so sorry for your loss. When the bridge calls it calls and sometimes they fly over quickly. I'm sure she felt conforted to have you near and it is always easy for the hammy so never fret that she did not want to go.
Remember her spirit is at the bridge though part of it stays with you in your heart always. She no longer needs her earthly body - that is now ready to became part of the great circle of life again. Find a spot you like and dig her grave then take her out and wrap gently in some soft tissue and place her in there. Plant a flower or shrub or some bulbs there and when you see them grow and flower you will know she is indeed back in the circle and you wll remember her when you see the plants.
Play well at the bridge Walnut x

[fluffydd]

I'm so sorry that Walnut left you. I know how hard it is to lose a little one that you dearly love. It's almost 3 weeks since Fluffy left me and it still hurts and I miss her so much but I think it is getting a little easier. I know how much you must miss Walnut. Take care. *Hugs*

[Kiraff]

I already ordered her cremation box. It's perfect. It's a handcarved box that was made in India in the 1970s. It matches the box of my past Chinchilla. I'll see if I can link a picture later of what looks like. I have been thinking that I would like to have some tattoos for a memorial for her but I'm not completely sure. That would include making something for my lost chinchilla and any other animals that pass on later on. They're all my children and I really want to do something special for them. If not a tattoo I was thinking some sort of jewelry that I add a piece on for each animal that passes on. My condolences for anyone else who has lost an animal especially recently it hurts like hell. I had my knee go out of socket before and I can certainly say that this hurts a whole lot worse.
I feel like one of those woman who loses the husband or a child and clings onto the body in the casket in desperation. I know it gets better but I really feel like I'm breaking.
Thanks for the support guys you've been really wonderful.