Aww I understand, your not mad for still grieving, I mean the hamster just passed away not that long ago for crying out loud! The first hamster I bought after my childhood ham.. The hamster that inspired me to make Hamster Central was a little sable Syrian I bought from a pet store. She died a month or two after I had her, I believe from wet tail. I was upset for quite some time and cried because I missed her. She was just so cute. Id usually get upset the most when id think about those moments she was especially cute. Ill probably be upset when Gerald goes for a time as well.
*huggles* You are totally justified to feel the way you do and you are perfectly welcome to talk about it with us