View Full Version : My Final Farewell to Bambi - Rest in Peace, My Sweet Prince.

09-29-2018, 05:39 PM
Earlier this afternoon I went in to check on Bambi, I put my hand next to his nest and moved it around a bit so he would hear me and come out like he usually does, I don't wake him up early every night but I was going to stay at
my aunties so I usually take him out so he can give me kisses and have playtime a bit earlier. He wasn't moving so I thought that he might just have been sleepier than usual. I moved some of his bedding so I could see a tiny
bit of his back, I thought it was strange that he wasn't waking up, but since he had been getting older he'd been staying in bed for longer, so I didn't really think anything of it at the time.

Instead of trying to wake him up again I decided to leave him for awhile get him some fresh water. However, when I got to the kitchen to re fill his bottle I got this horrible sinking feeling in my stomach. I felt like something was wrong. I went back into the room and moved some of the bedding around again, trying to wake him up. By this time I was already crying so I leaned down to touch him and he still wasn't moving. The substrate was mostly
still covering him and I just couldn't bring myself to move it to check on him myself, I think deep down I already knew that he had passed and I really just couldn't bring myself to see his face right then.

I called my mum upstairs and asked her to go and check on him because I thought that he had passed away. I don't think she believed me at first. Bambi had always been a heavy sleeper and there had been a few times that
I'd thought that he had died but he'd just been asleep.

I couldn't go back into the room so I went and sat in my room as she went in to check on him. After about a minute my mum came back into my room, and confirmed that he had passed away in his sleep.
We both just stood there and completely broke down, my mum spent just as much time with Bambi as I did and I knew that she cared about him too.

I haven't been able to stop crying since and it just doesn't seem real, mainly I think, because we haven't buried him yet. It's night time right now so we're going to bury him tomorrow, I want to bury him next to Misty because
I know that she'll take care of him. I haven't been able to go back into the room and see him yet, and thinking about how tomorrow will be the last time I ever get to see his cute little face in person just seems so, so crazy to
me. It doesn't feel right.

For the last few years I struggled with depression and really bad anxiety - so bad that I had to drop out of school. All of my animals mean so much to me and even though people might think that it's stupid I think they care
about me too. So that's why when I lose one of them it hurts so bad that I really can't describe it. If you've ever lost a pet then I know you'll know what I mean. When I went into the living room earlier I was crying and my cats
Pebbles and George both ran over to me and sat beside me. Pebbles does this when I have panic attacks or when I'm sick, but this was the first time George had ever done it, and it made me cry even more that they cared
enough to come see me.

When Misty died I couldn't bring myself to say half of the things I wanted to because I was so upset, and tomorrow I know that when the time comes to say goodbye to my little Bambi I'm not going to be able to say what I want then either. So I think that I'd like to write it here.

To Bambi -
I'm so sorry that you were alone when you passed. I'll never forgive myself for not being there with you, maybe you preferred for it to be that way, but I guess I'll never know. I'm sorry that I never got to say goodbye in person or
cuddle or kiss you one last time like you deserved. But I know that you wont be mad at me, because I know that you know how much a I loved you, and by all the time you spent giving me kisses and cuddling up to me - I know
you love me too.

I'll remember the day we brought you home - We though that something was wrong with you because we couldn't feel you moving in the box! When we opened it up we were so surprised to find that you were asleep! Even back then you were so laid back and trusting. :)

I'll remember the first time I gave pasta, I remember that you were so excited for it and you tried to eat it all in one go!

I'll remember the first time you gave me kisses I thought that it was so weird since it had never happened to me before but I was so so happy that I picked you up and I gave you kisses too.

I'll remember all the times you were so calm and let strangers - even my really young cousins hold you, you were
so gentle and sweet that when they went home that day they asked their mum for a hamster too.

I'll remember all the times you saw me and scratched at the side of your cage so I'd bring you out to play.

I'll remember you being silly and trying to dig inside my housecoat pocket.

I'll remember all the funny and cute ways you used to fall alseep and how you could literally fall asleep anywhere.

I'll remember how whenever I cleaned your cage I'd let you play on my bed and you'd sit there and try and dig
though the sheets.

I'll remember last night, the last time that I saw you, I remember you sitting on my hand calmly eating a piece of my banana that I'd let you steal off me. I remember you giving me kisses and letting me stroke you.

I'll remember your adorable little face looking up at me, I'll remember your beautiful shiny red eyes, and I'll remember your huge, wonderful, quirky, perfect, cheeky personality.

But most of all I'll always remember how much I love you, and I know for sure I'll never forget it.

Tomorrow I'll have to say goodbye to you for the final time, I know that I won't be able to say any of this to you in person so that's why I've written it here.

My darling Bambi I love you so much, and I'll never forget you. I'm glad that you passed away in your sleep, comfy in your den. I'm sorry that I wasn't with you but I know that you're in a beautiful place now. Make sure you say hello to Misty for me, I know she'll take good care of you. I love you. I'll miss you.

I think it'd be fitting to end this with some quotes from the movie that your named after, I think you'd like that.

"I'm always with you. Even if you can't see me, I'm here."

"Love is a song that never ends, life may be swift and fleeting. Hope may die, yet love's beautiful music comes each day like the dawn."

"Everything in the forest has it's season. When one thing falls, another grows. Maybe not what was there before, but something new and wonderful all the same."

Goodbye for now, Bambi, my sweet prince.






09-29-2018, 11:54 PM
I'm so very sorry for your loss, such a lovely tribute to your sweet Bambi, so many wonderful memories to cherish & lovely photos to remember him by.
I know how hard it is to lose a ham you have such a close bond with, try not to feel bad about not being there when he went to the bridge, he passed peacefully in his home where he felt safe & loved, that's the best we can wish for them.

Run free & play well at the bridge Bambi.

09-30-2018, 02:01 AM
What a beautiful tribute - I read this with tears in my eyes. Your Bambi was so lucky to have you, someone who cared and loved him so much. Rest in peace little one. Sending you big hugs during this difficult time. Xxx

09-30-2018, 04:37 AM
A very heartfelt and wonderful tribute to your special little ham. He would have known how much you loved and cared for him. Xx

09-30-2018, 05:02 AM
A very touching tribute to your sweet Bambi, a true heart ham.
Please do not blame yourself for not being there at the end. We all understand how that feels, but cypher is right, to pass in his sleep in his own nest is a peaceful and dignified end. You gave him a loving life and he obviously felt safe there.
Play well at the bridge with Misty, Bambi.

09-30-2018, 07:05 AM
What a thoughtful tribute. Bambi must have just been your soul mate. It’s never easy to loss a ham. Bambi was such a gorgeous boy and it’s obvious you loved him dearly. Sending you huge hugs to get through this very hard time.
Goodnight Bambi, you handsome boy.

09-30-2018, 08:33 AM
Thank you all so much for your messages, you made me cry again (in a nice way this time) We buried Bambi at around 7:30 this morning and it still hasn't sunk in that he's gone yet. I took a nap earlier and when I woke up my first instinct was to go into his room because I thought I could hear him drinking. I can see the place we buried him from my bedroom window which is nice, it's next to Misty and sometimes in the summer little blue flowers grow there so I thought that would be a nice place for him. I forgot to say in my original post but Bambi would have been two next month.

Thin Lizzy
10-01-2018, 07:26 PM
My heart sank and the tears flowed reading about your beautiful Bambi passing away, please don't be hard on yourself not being there when he went to the rainbow bridge, he went peacefully in his home surrounded by his favourite things. We all felt your love for your little Prince and your wonderful heartfelt tribute. Burying him next to Misty is the perfect place.
It hurts like hell when we lose our little ones but remember your love and wonderful bond you both shared.
You'll have good days and bad days, be sure to take comfort in your mum and us here. Thinking of you and sending you hugs xxx

10-03-2018, 07:01 AM
I am so very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful and fitting tribute to a much loved hamster.
Play well at the bridge Bambi x

10-03-2018, 08:18 AM
No finer tribute could have been written ... you have me missing him too. So sorry for your sudden loss. It must be hard.

10-03-2018, 03:45 PM
So sorry for your loss such a lovely tribute to your beautiful little Bambi, you gave him such a good and happy life. Play well at the bridge Bambi hugs to you beautiful little boy xxxxxx :(

10-03-2018, 03:52 PM
Damn fine tribute to your fur baby Bambi, Rest and run free at the bridge with Misty and all the other much loved Hams that have passed you have good company there.

Megan, there are plenty of folk here on HC that will listen when you need to talk, sometimes it is easier to talk to some one not known to you than a family remember, you are not alone, I know how bad depression can be..

10-04-2018, 01:59 PM
Beautiful tribute to Bambi, he clearly meant a lot to you. Rest well little one.

10-12-2018, 11:29 AM
My heart breaks for you. That was one of the most beautiful tributes I have ever read. He obviously knows how much you loved him. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

10-20-2018, 09:25 AM
That is such a lovely tribute to your little Bambi - he sounds as though he was loved so much-rest in peace little one......

10-21-2018, 11:29 AM
I am truly very, VERY sorry for your loss of beloved Bambi. Your heartfelt and loving tribute truly touched my heart and made me cry; I can hardly see what I am typing through my tears. My heart is breaking for you and what you and your mum are going through right now. It is so evident that he was a truly exceptional heart ham, special companion, and much missed treasured family member. He was extremely lucky to have your unconditional love and care just as you were fortunate to have his love and trust as well. Your special bond and all of your cherished memories of your sweet prince truly is beautiful and I know that he felt your exceptional love each and every second he was with you. Take comfort knowing that he felt the beauty of undying love because of you and he will live on forever in your heart and memories. He passed peacefully in his cozy nest knowing that he was cherished beyond words and couldn't have been loved more. That is a true blessing. His final resting place sounds absolutely lovely with the beautiful blue flowers blooming and being next to your cherished Misty. Let your dear mum, Pebbles and George comfort you, and please know that we are all here for you and we truly understand what you are going through. You are in my thoughts. Sending you plenty of huge hugs from me and tons of whisker kisses from Eros, Arwen, and Hinata.

Dear Bambi, may you find many grand adventures with Misty and all the other most cherished hams and pets at the bridge. Watch over you loving mum and know you will forever be loved, cherished, and missed. Please send a lovely rainbow to your Mum who loves you so.