Goodbye Boris

[BorisPasha]

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I really can't believe I'm having to post in this section of the forum so soon but I am :(

Sadly, only 2 weeks and 1 day after we said goodbye to Pasha we found ourselves having to say goodbye to Boris. I think this is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to write.

Boris was not himself on Monday night. He seemed to be rocking slightly and was making a strange reflex with his mouth like he was gasping for breath. He also had cloudy like discs in his eyes. We really thought that perhaps he was on his way to the bridge. I held him and talked to him, offered him a treat and while we were deciding if we should rush him to the vets or keep him comfortable he went back to his usual self. We decided to leave him but make an appointment the next day.

He was fine all day until it was time to go to the vets. The minute we got to the vets he seemed to be really struggling again and all he wanted was to sit on my hand. The vet examined him but his eyes were clear at that point. She couldn't hear anything unusual with his breathing but did say it looked very exaggerated. She took a spot of blood from his paw and his blood sugar was fine and gave him an anti-inflammatory injection and told him to keep an eye on him and if he got worse to bring him back. We got him home and once he was back in his cage he went back to normal.

Yesterday morning when we got up he seemed to be really struggling to breath and making clicking and squeaking noises. We phoned the vets and they told us to bring him straight up. As weak as he was, he climbed on to my hand and didn't want to be put back in his travel case. They got him on oxygen as the vet felt he was too unstable to be examined. It was agreed that he would stay on the oxygen for an hour in the hopes that he would stabilize and could be examined. We got to see him before we left and he looked so small as he tried to turn to see me. I don't even know now why we went home and didn't just stay. They said they would phone us and let us know what was happening and I don't think either of us were thinking very clearly. We'd only been home for 15 minutes when the vet phoned to say he had deteriorated further and the kindest thing would be to have him pts.

I am just so heartbroken and can't help feel that if we'd taken him on the Monday night or maybe if the vet had given him some antibiotics on the Tuesday night maybe he'd still be with us. If only we'd stayed at the vets we could have had a chance to say goodbye to him.

Boris was my heart ham always there for me to give me a kiss and a cuddle. He was such a snuggle bug and I feel so lost that he's not here. He was always waiting for me every morning to rush over to the bars when I walked in the room and it was so sad this morning to see him empty cage.

He was always so full of fun, adventurous, cheeky and lovely. There was never a dull moment. I would see him more than all the other boys put together every day and the house feels so quiet without him. I think maybe he missed Pasha and wanted to be with him at the rainbow bridge. I'm glad they are together again and with Max too but it's very hard to have lost them so close together.

Boris, you will always be in our hearts. We loved you more than you could ever know. I hope you are having fun with Pasha and Max and all your friends. Sleep well, rest easy and play to your hearts content.

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I'm sorry for making such a long post but I felt I just needed to get it all written down and out my system.

[cypher]

I know I've already spoken to you about your sad loss but I would like to say again here just how very sorry I am, I understand how special your wonderful little man was to you, such a true heart ham & his loss must be totally devastating for you especially so soon after Pasha going to the bridge.
Try not to second guess yourself in hindsight, I know that's easier said than done, you gave Boris such a wonderful life & he couldn't have wished for more love or better care, I don't think you could have done more for him.
Little Boris lived life to the full & will be sadly missed by so many of us but always fondly remembered.
Hugs to you & Hamdad, thinking of you at this very difficult time.

Run free & play well at the bridge sweet Boris, reunited with Pasha & Max once again.

[Coco61]

Oh BP, I am devastated for you. I had to look at the thread title more than once to realise it was about Boris and not Pasha. I am truly sorry about the lost of your special heart Ham. I am grieving too. I have not posted a memorial to my baby Jeeves but it is posted on his main thread. Like you It was yesterday and I too wonder if I could have moved quicker with the vet. It was all over in 2 days and I remained stunned at losing Jeeves so young.
Your Boris, on the other hand, lived a long life full of love, fun and laughter. What fabulous photo shoots you took of your little character. There are so many to remember the best of him by. I am ashamed I only have 3 photos of Jeeves as I assumed there would be more time in warmer weather when he was fully tame.
Maybe Boris did indeed want to join Pasha, missing his brother. Maybe our two crossed soon after one another though I think Jeeves was first and would have been waiting for Boris with the others.
A supportive Hamdad is a good thing at this time. I have tidied up the cage but pass it still expecting him to be there. It must be so much more difficult for you missing your special Boris. Hugs to you both.
Run free and play with the hamily over the bridge Boris. Know you were much loved all your life in a very special place. You will be missed so much xx

[Pebbles82]

I am so sorry about Boris xxx I know how hard it is to make that decision. Nothing you did would have made any difference - it was his time. He tried to hang in there but it was clearly just his time. You did a kind thing out of love. Play well little Boris - over the rainbow bridge.

[CMB]

Story to hear about Boris.

[dreamtree1234]

Oh no, I am SO devastated for you, BP! I could hardly believe my eyes when I saw the title of this thread here; my eyes are welling up with tears at your terrible loss of beloved Boris. My heart goes out to you and hamdad; losing a ham so dear to your heart is so painful but I couldn't even imagine losing two in such a very short time. I am so very sorry for what you are going through right now and I am here for you. Although I understand questioning "what if only. . . ?", please remember and know in your heart that you couldn't have possibly done any more for your darling fur baby. He always knew how devoted you were to him and how much he was truly loved and cherished. He certainly would have known that you and hamdad always did your very best for him, too. Sadly, it was probably just his time, and he was missing and wanting to be reunited with his loving brother Pasha. I am sure that they are together again and playing with Max and all their other wonderful friends at the Rainbow Bridge. He loves you both so very much and would want you to be alright and remember all the happy times you all shared together. I am sure your three hamboys are looking down with so much love on you and hamdad; they are now your tiny little fur angels keeping watch over all of the loved ones they had to leave behind. Boris truly was a magnificent ham always full of so much personality, charm, and silliness. I feel blessed to have gotten the opportunity to know him through all of your wonderful posts on his shared thread with dear Pasha. He certainly has brought me and so many other HCers so much happiness and laughter during his wonderful life. He was truly a photogenic comediham playing so many roles such as Count Hamula and Hamsta Paws; he was one of a kind. I will always remember him with great fondness. He will be greatly missed and live on in all the hearts of those who knew and loved him. You gave him the most amazing, loving home and no ham could be luckier. BP, please know that we are all here for you and hamdad. Find comfort in your many wonderful memories and let your loving hamily help your heart heal from the grief of losing your dear heart-ham. Such a lovely, touching tribute filled with so many precious pictures of your handsome, cuddly Boris. Huge hugs. xxx

RIP, dear Boris. Know that HC will never quite be the same without you; we love and miss you so. Have many adventures with Max, Pasha, and all the other beloved hams that have gone to the bridge before you. Please send extra rainbows to your mum and dad because they love and miss you so. If you happen to run into my dear, beloved Snickers at the bridge, please give her several extra whisker kisses because I miss her so.

[Fluffagrams]

I was so sorry to read of Boris’s passing BP.

Often when we lose a precious pet we go through that questioning period where we wonder if we could have done more and I think that stems from the fact that we love them and we always want to do what is best for them but I am sure that you did all that you could for Boris and he knew how much he was loved.

Over time the sadness will pass and you will reflect on all the happy memories that you have of him... those tiny paws will always leave huge paw prints on our hearts.

Sleep well Boris... Jessie saved you some seeds to welcome you at the bridge.

[Rads]

BP I know we have already conversed on Instagram, but as I said there I am so shocked and sorry at Boris's passing, he had seemed to be doing so brilliantly well.
He can meet up with Pasha and make mayhem where ever they are now.
Boris, Play Hard, Play Fast and above all have fun your Mum and Hamdad will never forget you even though you where the master of the grumpy look.

[Burakki]

Oh no! I’m so devastated to hear this! Boris, you were always such a little bundle of joy and fun. I know I’ve been off Instagram for some time but I’ll forever hold dear conversations Boris and Marti had on instagram. All his photos have always been so funny and cool, just as he was. I can’t imagine how you’re feeling. That’s just horrible. I was in denial when I saw the thread, refusing to believe that it really was your Boris. I know that he’s with Pasha and Max now, but I can’t believe that he won’t be with us anymore. My heart goes with you and hamdad, please don’t be hard on yourselves, don’t blame yourselves, you did everything right. When I lost my beloved dog, I wasn’t with him and I actually wasted my last opportunity to see him, even though I didn’t know it would be the last time I still blame myself, so I know how intense it gets. Be strong and know that we all are there for you!

Be happy and free, Boris the handsomest ham of instagram. Marti sends you her love and lots of kisses!

[Drago]

How utterly heartbreaking. I’m so so sorry to hear that this has happened. First pasha, now sweet little Boris. My greatest sympathies go out to you, boris will be greatly missed.

Don’t blame yourself. Boris lived a good life, and quite frankly, taking him to the vet a day sooner, likely wouldn’t have done much. You did the kindest thing possible by letting him go. It was his time, and he is at peace now.

Take some time to recover. It’s hard losing your heart ham (or any hamster for that matter).

Play well at the bridge little one! Hope all is well with you guys. We’re all here for you xxx

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[BorisPasha]

Thank you all for your support at this time. I'm finding it very difficult to be strong and not cry every time I think about him. He has left a big hole in my heart and my life. We'd only just started to feel a little at peace with Pasha's after we were able to pick up his ashes on Saturday and bring him home where he belongs. I'm grateful for my other 4 boys and all the kindness and support you have given us here. It helps so much to know that people understand exactly how it feels to loose our beloved little friends.

[SKB_Hamsters]

I was heartbroken and in shock when I saw this thread - I was hoping that I had read the title wrong. I am so very sorry for your loss of the very special Boris - he captured our heart like all your hamster have done but something about Boris was truly special I always thoroughly enjoyed reading about his adventures as well as seeing his wonderful photoshoots, in which his adorable photos were always full of so much character and personality. You have shared so many wonderful memories together and looking at the photos he looks like he had lots of fun too! It was so evident that you and Boris had a very special bond with each other - he was also so very lucky to have a fantastic home with you with endless amount of love.

It must be very sad time for you at the moment losing to both Boris and Pasha so near to one another. I'm sure Boris and Pasha probably had a very special connection between each other and Boris didn't want to be alone without Pasha - just like with my Honey and Caramel.

Play well Boris at the bridge with Pasha and Max - and remember to get up to lots of mischief together.

[souffle]

I am so very sorry for your loss. It's a double blow to lose both so close together. He was clearly so loved and treasured, We shall all miss your handsome boys on the forum
Run free at the bridge Boris with your friends x

[Hammy992]

I'm so sorry to hear that Boris has passed over to the bridge, and so soon after your little Pasha.
It does seem like he was ready to go and there wasn't anything more you could have done. Having your love and comfort in his final days was a special thing and I'm sure that made a big difference to him.
You have so many lovely photos of him, a lot of happy memories of his life with you and in time you'll be able to look back on them and smile at the thought of his cheeky antics and sweet little face.
I'm sure he and Pasha will look after each other at the rainbow bridge and play young and free with all the other hammy friends that have passed.

Play well at the bridge little Boris and Pasha x

[Thin Lizzy]

BP, I'm so gutted, can't believe Boris has gone to the bridge, I know Pasha will be taking care of him. Lots of tears have been cried for your fantastic boy who made me laugh so much, I got jawache. Thinking of you at this very sad and tough time. Big love and hugs xxx

[hellobg]

Don't be sad, remember your hamster lived a happy life with you, Boris will always stay in your heart.

[BorisPasha]

Thank you for your kind words and support. Some days I think I'm doing ok and then it just hits me all over again. We finally settled on urns for Boris and Pasha and they arrived on Monday. Tonight we hope to get the ashes in to them and I expect it will make me cry all over again but it wil be another part of the healing/grieving process. Sparky seems to have turned in to a mini version of Boris, always wanting to be out playing and running around so he has been keeping me busy :)

I'm hoping to get back in to the swing of things here on HC as I've missed being around but I expect it will take me a while to get caught up.

[Pebbles82]

Big hugs to you. The urns sound lovely. I found a change of scene - getting away somewhere for a day/week-end helped as it is so hard. It gives you a boost.

[cypher]

Good to hear you have the urns now, I can imagine how you'll feel doing the ashes but it will be lovely to have their memorial complete & I hope you feel a little better when that's done.
Sparky is a little star following in his big brother's footsteps! So glad you have him & his brothers to help you through this time *hugs*

[BorisPasha]

Thank you Serendipity and Cypher. Needless to say I cried my eyes out so just as well hamdad was there to put the ashes in.

He well and truly left his paw print on my heart.

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[cypher]

I so love that, it is just perfect for your lovely boy, I'm sure he'll be happy to see this representing the paw print forever on your heart.
All the urns look lovely with your rainbow colours there too.

[Coco61]

Just stunning, a heart and paw print everything you want to say and see with such eloquent simplicity. Perfect for your heart ham xx

[Turrican]

The heart and paw print is lovely. Tears in my eyes now. I'm so sorry that your beloved Boris has passed on, so sweet that you such a great bond. Thinking of you x

[Thin Lizzy]

The paw print on the heart so made me cry, Boris has left one on mine too.
A truly perfect tribute xx