Colby and the Dwarfs
09-03-2014, 03:30 PM
I do not know.
Why is this happening?
What did I do?
What is wrong with me?
Over the last 24 hours 5 of my beloved pets have died.
Rebel, Daisy, Colby Jack(hamsters), and (my gerbils), Honey and Vanilla, have died.
"Every time you lose an animal, it's like losing a brick from the house. Pretty soon the house just falls down, you know?"
Bindi Irwin
I don't know what happened.
Yesterday when I got home I went to check on them, the trio first as always. Rebel was cold and stiff. My heart stopped.
Daisy was breathing heavy. Lying on her side.
I wrapped her in tissues, and sang and cried and told her to tell her sister I loved her.
I left to check on Phoenix(who was fine).
When I came back, she was gone. Rebel and Daisy were a little over 1 year old.
Neither girl had a scratch.
This morning, Honey and Vanilla were gone. Not a scratch on either of them.
Now my beloved Colby, for which my username was named after, is gone. Not my baby boy...not my first syrian. Not my little man. Surely not. He cannot be dead. I don't accept that! No no no no no. No. I just want to go to sleep and wake up and it all be over. I just want it to end. This can't be happening. Not to me.
Not to someone who loves their animals more than they could comprehend, not to someone who gives all their time to them. Not to someone like me.
But it is over. My babies....are gone. Just.....no.
Rebel.
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At two weeks old you escaped. You moved to the other corner of your cage and made Zelda carry you back as you screamed. You had so much character...you were crazy. You escaped everything, chewed up everything, made a gender switch which resulted in Phoenix, yet I still love you more than you will ever know.
Every morning I get up early. You are always the only one awake, greeting me and begging for a slice of carrot. Now no one is awake. The morning is sad now. You brought light to my life, you were something to look forward to.
You were smart. Gosh, you are intelligent. And brave. And fearless. You were my little soldier, taking on anything and everything. Being tiny never stopped you.
Rebel, you beautiful little hamster, you are simply the most brave, smart, funny little creature I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. May you play well at the Rainbow Bridge until I can come get you. xxx
Daisy
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Sweet little girl. So sweet. At a mere 42g, you were tiny and long. Your size worried me, but you just were built like a ballerina, and you were beautiful.
You were smart, kind, loving, amazing. Your little paws and your big deep red-brown eyes could melt a heart. You loved your mother, your sister, your brother, your niece. You played nice and never started or finished a fight. You often sat on your blue house to watch for me to come home in the afternoon.
Daisy, you sweet little girl, you are the most kind, shy, sweet, loving, beautiful little girl, and I love you to the moon and back a trillion times. 'Till we meet again, pretty hamster. xxx
Vanilla
While your sister made the trouble, you kept it under control.
You watched, waited. You were cautious, and quiet, and eager to please. You loved to cuddle up and watch my iPad screen. Your perfect white fur was so soft and shone, and your eyes were a deep, dark red. You were stunning.
You had a lovely temperament, and a sweet disposition. You are silly, funny, and....you.
Silly little girl, I will always miss your sweet face and the love in your eyes. See you soon, xxx
Honey
You are intelligent. Your intelligence made you easily frustrated, and you showed me when you were mad. But that did not make me love you any less.
You liked to sit in my lap and eat seeds, and climb your waterbottle. You were too smart for me, you could escape anything.
You pretty, funny, good little trouble-making furball, I cannot wait to see you again, so you can continue to amaze me with your antics and incredible little personality. Until then, be good for me sweetie. xxx
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Colby Jack
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No. No. No. I'm not writing this. I can't. Where are the words to express my feelings for this small, heart-warming creature?
My sweet, caring, affectionate, well-meaning, beautiful, loving, perfect little boy...*sigh*. I just cannot process it...
This will be short and sweet.
Colby Jack, I love you. You are too perfect for this world, you know that? You are too sweet. Too...you.
I do not fear death. Not if I get to have my babies back. Until then, I will make new memories. And when I get there...they'll be waiting. I know that.
Goodbye, my sweet little angels. I miss you more than you will ever know. Bye xxx
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Why is this happening?
What did I do?
What is wrong with me?
Over the last 24 hours 5 of my beloved pets have died.
Rebel, Daisy, Colby Jack(hamsters), and (my gerbils), Honey and Vanilla, have died.
"Every time you lose an animal, it's like losing a brick from the house. Pretty soon the house just falls down, you know?"
Bindi Irwin
I don't know what happened.
Yesterday when I got home I went to check on them, the trio first as always. Rebel was cold and stiff. My heart stopped.
Daisy was breathing heavy. Lying on her side.
I wrapped her in tissues, and sang and cried and told her to tell her sister I loved her.
I left to check on Phoenix(who was fine).
When I came back, she was gone. Rebel and Daisy were a little over 1 year old.
Neither girl had a scratch.
This morning, Honey and Vanilla were gone. Not a scratch on either of them.
Now my beloved Colby, for which my username was named after, is gone. Not my baby boy...not my first syrian. Not my little man. Surely not. He cannot be dead. I don't accept that! No no no no no. No. I just want to go to sleep and wake up and it all be over. I just want it to end. This can't be happening. Not to me.
Not to someone who loves their animals more than they could comprehend, not to someone who gives all their time to them. Not to someone like me.
But it is over. My babies....are gone. Just.....no.
Rebel.
http://i102.photobucket.com/albums/m85/ColbyandtheDwarfs/imagejpg1_zpsf6881fa3.jpg (http://s102.photobucket.com/user/ColbyandtheDwarfs/media/imagejpg1_zpsf6881fa3.jpg.html)
At two weeks old you escaped. You moved to the other corner of your cage and made Zelda carry you back as you screamed. You had so much character...you were crazy. You escaped everything, chewed up everything, made a gender switch which resulted in Phoenix, yet I still love you more than you will ever know.
Every morning I get up early. You are always the only one awake, greeting me and begging for a slice of carrot. Now no one is awake. The morning is sad now. You brought light to my life, you were something to look forward to.
You were smart. Gosh, you are intelligent. And brave. And fearless. You were my little soldier, taking on anything and everything. Being tiny never stopped you.
Rebel, you beautiful little hamster, you are simply the most brave, smart, funny little creature I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. May you play well at the Rainbow Bridge until I can come get you. xxx
Daisy
http://i102.photobucket.com/albums/m85/ColbyandtheDwarfs/imagejpg4_zps12cbf376.jpg (http://s102.photobucket.com/user/ColbyandtheDwarfs/media/imagejpg4_zps12cbf376.jpg.html)
Sweet little girl. So sweet. At a mere 42g, you were tiny and long. Your size worried me, but you just were built like a ballerina, and you were beautiful.
You were smart, kind, loving, amazing. Your little paws and your big deep red-brown eyes could melt a heart. You loved your mother, your sister, your brother, your niece. You played nice and never started or finished a fight. You often sat on your blue house to watch for me to come home in the afternoon.
Daisy, you sweet little girl, you are the most kind, shy, sweet, loving, beautiful little girl, and I love you to the moon and back a trillion times. 'Till we meet again, pretty hamster. xxx
Vanilla
While your sister made the trouble, you kept it under control.
You watched, waited. You were cautious, and quiet, and eager to please. You loved to cuddle up and watch my iPad screen. Your perfect white fur was so soft and shone, and your eyes were a deep, dark red. You were stunning.
You had a lovely temperament, and a sweet disposition. You are silly, funny, and....you.
Silly little girl, I will always miss your sweet face and the love in your eyes. See you soon, xxx
Honey
You are intelligent. Your intelligence made you easily frustrated, and you showed me when you were mad. But that did not make me love you any less.
You liked to sit in my lap and eat seeds, and climb your waterbottle. You were too smart for me, you could escape anything.
You pretty, funny, good little trouble-making furball, I cannot wait to see you again, so you can continue to amaze me with your antics and incredible little personality. Until then, be good for me sweetie. xxx
http://i102.photobucket.com/albums/m85/ColbyandtheDwarfs/imagejpg3_zps0aed857f.jpg (http://s102.photobucket.com/user/ColbyandtheDwarfs/media/imagejpg3_zps0aed857f.jpg.html)
Colby Jack
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No. No. No. I'm not writing this. I can't. Where are the words to express my feelings for this small, heart-warming creature?
My sweet, caring, affectionate, well-meaning, beautiful, loving, perfect little boy...*sigh*. I just cannot process it...
This will be short and sweet.
Colby Jack, I love you. You are too perfect for this world, you know that? You are too sweet. Too...you.
I do not fear death. Not if I get to have my babies back. Until then, I will make new memories. And when I get there...they'll be waiting. I know that.
Goodbye, my sweet little angels. I miss you more than you will ever know. Bye xxx
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