gutterglitterxx
06-05-2013, 10:12 PM
My beautiful girl, Jasmine, passed on Tuesday in my hands.
She had been battling for a week and a half but her little body just couldn't fight anymore. She stopped eating and drinking and could barely stay on her feet. I had planned on bringing her to the vet on Wednesday to have her helped to the bridge, but she decided to go while with Mummy at home. Losing her shatters my heart, especially so soon after Cheeto, but I am glad that in the end she was with me when she took her final journey.
Jazzy, I remember the first time I saw you. You were all alone in a small tank, placed away from the other hamsters, at a shop I had never visited before. You were absolutely stunning. Thick, beautiful, shiny black fur. I didn't really have room for another hamster but I just couldn't walk away from you so I asked the staff about you. They pretty much tried to talk me out of bringing you home!
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps6e1e9a84.jpg
They told me you had been brought back to the store by a family who never ended up paying attention to you. You had lived for 6 months in a 10 gallon tank with nothing but a food bowl and a water bottle. No wheel, no toys, no chews. The staff explained that since being brought back to the store, you had bitten many people. Staff and customers alike. They told me they didn't know what they were going to do with you because you were "unsellable." They even told me you were possibly going to end up as snake food. I asked if I could take a closer look at you. The staff member hesitated but ended up lifting you from the tank and handing you to me. You were SO scared of me. So scared, in fact, that you leaped out of my hands which were thankfully only about a foot above your tank. But it was too late... I had already looked into your beautiful eyes and decided you simply needed some love and attention. And damn it, I was going to be the person to give it to you. So you came home with me.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps808ce29f.jpg
You were a different hamster as soon as I brought you home. While you were definitely cautious, and maybe even suspicious, you never leaped from my hands quite like that first time. Sure, you were timid, and would sometimes try to get away with a bit more gusto than I had ever experienced. But after only 2 days you were begging to come out of your cage, gladly accepting treats from my hands, and even putting up with my kisses and cuddles.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps515f7e1c.jpg
Throughout your life, you always tended to be happier in your cage most of the time. And I have to admit that, at first, I took a bit of offense to that. But I learned to understand that your personality was just a bit different. And I certainly learned to pay attention when you did cause a ruckus, which translated to "Let me out, Mummy!" We had tons of moments together, usually late at night when things were mostly quiet and you knew you had my undivided attention. And I would hold you up to my face, look into those eyes (as I did the first day I held you), and know just how special you were. You simply needed a little more patience and a little more understanding. You couldn't help the life you had lead before I met you. And I can only wish I could have saved you sooner.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zpsa0da29e7.jpg
I'm going to miss you so much, Jazzy. Thank you so much for allowing me to be your Mummy and for letting me into your itty bitty heart. For trusting me and for proving that all you really did need was some love. Which I hope you know (and felt) I gave you tons of. I will miss our time together, which was always so special to me, at least partly because it wasn't always as frequent as with my other hamsters. I really cherished our cuddles. I hope I was able to give you the best life I possibly could, and I hope you found yourself happier here with Mummy than anywhere else you had been. As crazy as it may sound every time you trashed your cage to get my attention, you brightened my day.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps0006d49b.jpg
I love you, Jazzy Jazz. I hope you are happy and healthy now, wherever you may be. You will be leaping around in my heart forever. Rest in peace, baby girl. xx
She had been battling for a week and a half but her little body just couldn't fight anymore. She stopped eating and drinking and could barely stay on her feet. I had planned on bringing her to the vet on Wednesday to have her helped to the bridge, but she decided to go while with Mummy at home. Losing her shatters my heart, especially so soon after Cheeto, but I am glad that in the end she was with me when she took her final journey.
Jazzy, I remember the first time I saw you. You were all alone in a small tank, placed away from the other hamsters, at a shop I had never visited before. You were absolutely stunning. Thick, beautiful, shiny black fur. I didn't really have room for another hamster but I just couldn't walk away from you so I asked the staff about you. They pretty much tried to talk me out of bringing you home!
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps6e1e9a84.jpg
They told me you had been brought back to the store by a family who never ended up paying attention to you. You had lived for 6 months in a 10 gallon tank with nothing but a food bowl and a water bottle. No wheel, no toys, no chews. The staff explained that since being brought back to the store, you had bitten many people. Staff and customers alike. They told me they didn't know what they were going to do with you because you were "unsellable." They even told me you were possibly going to end up as snake food. I asked if I could take a closer look at you. The staff member hesitated but ended up lifting you from the tank and handing you to me. You were SO scared of me. So scared, in fact, that you leaped out of my hands which were thankfully only about a foot above your tank. But it was too late... I had already looked into your beautiful eyes and decided you simply needed some love and attention. And damn it, I was going to be the person to give it to you. So you came home with me.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps808ce29f.jpg
You were a different hamster as soon as I brought you home. While you were definitely cautious, and maybe even suspicious, you never leaped from my hands quite like that first time. Sure, you were timid, and would sometimes try to get away with a bit more gusto than I had ever experienced. But after only 2 days you were begging to come out of your cage, gladly accepting treats from my hands, and even putting up with my kisses and cuddles.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps515f7e1c.jpg
Throughout your life, you always tended to be happier in your cage most of the time. And I have to admit that, at first, I took a bit of offense to that. But I learned to understand that your personality was just a bit different. And I certainly learned to pay attention when you did cause a ruckus, which translated to "Let me out, Mummy!" We had tons of moments together, usually late at night when things were mostly quiet and you knew you had my undivided attention. And I would hold you up to my face, look into those eyes (as I did the first day I held you), and know just how special you were. You simply needed a little more patience and a little more understanding. You couldn't help the life you had lead before I met you. And I can only wish I could have saved you sooner.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zpsa0da29e7.jpg
I'm going to miss you so much, Jazzy. Thank you so much for allowing me to be your Mummy and for letting me into your itty bitty heart. For trusting me and for proving that all you really did need was some love. Which I hope you know (and felt) I gave you tons of. I will miss our time together, which was always so special to me, at least partly because it wasn't always as frequent as with my other hamsters. I really cherished our cuddles. I hope I was able to give you the best life I possibly could, and I hope you found yourself happier here with Mummy than anywhere else you had been. As crazy as it may sound every time you trashed your cage to get my attention, you brightened my day.
http://i1330.photobucket.com/albums/w569/marquelledufour/image_zps0006d49b.jpg
I love you, Jazzy Jazz. I hope you are happy and healthy now, wherever you may be. You will be leaping around in my heart forever. Rest in peace, baby girl. xx