Hello. I can completely understand your grief and how these things can last. The Blue Cross have a pet bereavement service. I'll link it below. They are very good and helped me at a difficult time via their email service. Sometimes people can have special words and it helps you get through this stage of grief. The only other thing I can say is, I didn't really come out of grief until we got a new baby hamster and suddenly we were all happy again - and they do make you laugh with their baby antics. No hamster could replace the one we lost but they are all different. I think when it happens with the next hamster, you don't feel the grief so traumatically - hard to explain but you gain an acceptance that it is their time. And you deal with it differntly. You may not feel like having another hamster but I think it is a good thing to help you over the grief and we have room in our hearts for more love and more pets.
Do email the Blue Cross service though -they really help.
https://www.bluecross.org.uk/pet-ber...t-and-pet-loss