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MeganAndMisty · 09-29-2018, 05:39 PM

Earlier this afternoon I went in to check on Bambi, I put my hand next to his nest and moved it around a bit so he would hear me and come out like he usually does, I don't wake him up early every night but I was going to stay at
my aunties so I usually take him out so he can give me kisses and have playtime a bit earlier. He wasn't moving so I thought that he might just have been sleepier than usual. I moved some of his bedding so I could see a tiny
bit of his back, I thought it was strange that he wasn't waking up, but since he had been getting older he'd been staying in bed for longer, so I didn't really think anything of it at the time.

Instead of trying to wake him up again I decided to leave him for awhile get him some fresh water. However, when I got to the kitchen to re fill his bottle I got this horrible sinking feeling in my stomach. I felt like something was wrong. I went back into the room and moved some of the bedding around again, trying to wake him up. By this time I was already crying so I leaned down to touch him and he still wasn't moving. The substrate was mostly
still covering him and I just couldn't bring myself to move it to check on him myself, I think deep down I already knew that he had passed and I really just couldn't bring myself to see his face right then.

I called my mum upstairs and asked her to go and check on him because I thought that he had passed away. I don't think she believed me at first. Bambi had always been a heavy sleeper and there had been a few times that
I'd thought that he had died but he'd just been asleep.

I couldn't go back into the room so I went and sat in my room as she went in to check on him. After about a minute my mum came back into my room, and confirmed that he had passed away in his sleep.
We both just stood there and completely broke down, my mum spent just as much time with Bambi as I did and I knew that she cared about him too.

I haven't been able to stop crying since and it just doesn't seem real, mainly I think, because we haven't buried him yet. It's night time right now so we're going to bury him tomorrow, I want to bury him next to Misty because
I know that she'll take care of him. I haven't been able to go back into the room and see him yet, and thinking about how tomorrow will be the last time I ever get to see his cute little face in person just seems so, so crazy to
me. It doesn't feel right.

For the last few years I struggled with depression and really bad anxiety - so bad that I had to drop out of school. All of my animals mean so much to me and even though people might think that it's stupid I think they care
about me too. So that's why when I lose one of them it hurts so bad that I really can't describe it. If you've ever lost a pet then I know you'll know what I mean. When I went into the living room earlier I was crying and my cats
Pebbles and George both ran over to me and sat beside me. Pebbles does this when I have panic attacks or when I'm sick, but this was the first time George had ever done it, and it made me cry even more that they cared
enough to come see me.

When Misty died I couldn't bring myself to say half of the things I wanted to because I was so upset, and tomorrow I know that when the time comes to say goodbye to my little Bambi I'm not going to be able to say what I want then either. So I think that I'd like to write it here.

To Bambi -
I'm so sorry that you were alone when you passed. I'll never forgive myself for not being there with you, maybe you preferred for it to be that way, but I guess I'll never know. I'm sorry that I never got to say goodbye in person or
cuddle or kiss you one last time like you deserved. But I know that you wont be mad at me, because I know that you know how much a I loved you, and by all the time you spent giving me kisses and cuddling up to me - I know
you love me too.

I'll remember the day we brought you home - We though that something was wrong with you because we couldn't feel you moving in the box! When we opened it up we were so surprised to find that you were asleep! Even back then you were so laid back and trusting.

I'll remember the first time I gave pasta, I remember that you were so excited for it and you tried to eat it all in one go!

I'll remember the first time you gave me kisses I thought that it was so weird since it had never happened to me before but I was so so happy that I picked you up and I gave you kisses too.

I'll remember all the times you were so calm and let strangers - even my really young cousins hold you, you were
so gentle and sweet that when they went home that day they asked their mum for a hamster too.

I'll remember all the times you saw me and scratched at the side of your cage so I'd bring you out to play.

I'll remember you being silly and trying to dig inside my housecoat pocket.

I'll remember all the funny and cute ways you used to fall alseep and how you could literally fall asleep anywhere.

I'll remember how whenever I cleaned your cage I'd let you play on my bed and you'd sit there and try and dig
though the sheets.

I'll remember last night, the last time that I saw you, I remember you sitting on my hand calmly eating a piece of my banana that I'd let you steal off me. I remember you giving me kisses and letting me stroke you.

I'll remember your adorable little face looking up at me, I'll remember your beautiful shiny red eyes, and I'll remember your huge, wonderful, quirky, perfect, cheeky personality.

But most of all I'll always remember how much I love you, and I know for sure I'll never forget it.

Tomorrow I'll have to say goodbye to you for the final time, I know that I won't be able to say any of this to you in person so that's why I've written it here.

My darling Bambi I love you so much, and I'll never forget you. I'm glad that you passed away in your sleep, comfy in your den. I'm sorry that I wasn't with you but I know that you're in a beautiful place now. Make sure you say hello to Misty for me, I know she'll take good care of you. I love you. I'll miss you.

I think it'd be fitting to end this with some quotes from the movie that your named after, I think you'd like that.

"I'm always with you. Even if you can't see me, I'm here."

"Love is a song that never ends, life may be swift and fleeting. Hope may die, yet love's beautiful music comes each day like the dawn."

"Everything in the forest has it's season. When one thing falls, another grows. Maybe not what was there before, but something new and wonderful all the same."

Goodbye for now, Bambi, my sweet prince.

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09-29-2018, 05:39 PM
MeganAndMisty Hamster Pup Join Date: Feb 2016 Location: Uk Posts: 221	My Final Farewell to Bambi - Rest in Peace, My Sweet Prince. Earlier this afternoon I went in to check on Bambi, I put my hand next to his nest and moved it around a bit so he would hear me and come out like he usually does, I don't wake him up early every night but I was going to stay at my aunties so I usually take him out so he can give me kisses and have playtime a bit earlier. He wasn't moving so I thought that he might just have been sleepier than usual. I moved some of his bedding so I could see a tiny bit of his back, I thought it was strange that he wasn't waking up, but since he had been getting older he'd been staying in bed for longer, so I didn't really think anything of it at the time. Instead of trying to wake him up again I decided to leave him for awhile get him some fresh water. However, when I got to the kitchen to re fill his bottle I got this horrible sinking feeling in my stomach. I felt like something was wrong. I went back into the room and moved some of the bedding around again, trying to wake him up. By this time I was already crying so I leaned down to touch him and he still wasn't moving. The substrate was mostly still covering him and I just couldn't bring myself to move it to check on him myself, I think deep down I already knew that he had passed and I really just couldn't bring myself to see his face right then. I called my mum upstairs and asked her to go and check on him because I thought that he had passed away. I don't think she believed me at first. Bambi had always been a heavy sleeper and there had been a few times that I'd thought that he had died but he'd just been asleep. I couldn't go back into the room so I went and sat in my room as she went in to check on him. After about a minute my mum came back into my room, and confirmed that he had passed away in his sleep. We both just stood there and completely broke down, my mum spent just as much time with Bambi as I did and I knew that she cared about him too. I haven't been able to stop crying since and it just doesn't seem real, mainly I think, because we haven't buried him yet. It's night time right now so we're going to bury him tomorrow, I want to bury him next to Misty because I know that she'll take care of him. I haven't been able to go back into the room and see him yet, and thinking about how tomorrow will be the last time I ever get to see his cute little face in person just seems so, so crazy to me. It doesn't feel right. For the last few years I struggled with depression and really bad anxiety - so bad that I had to drop out of school. All of my animals mean so much to me and even though people might think that it's stupid I think they care about me too. So that's why when I lose one of them it hurts so bad that I really can't describe it. If you've ever lost a pet then I know you'll know what I mean. When I went into the living room earlier I was crying and my cats Pebbles and George both ran over to me and sat beside me. Pebbles does this when I have panic attacks or when I'm sick, but this was the first time George had ever done it, and it made me cry even more that they cared enough to come see me. When Misty died I couldn't bring myself to say half of the things I wanted to because I was so upset, and tomorrow I know that when the time comes to say goodbye to my little Bambi I'm not going to be able to say what I want then either. So I think that I'd like to write it here. To Bambi - I'm so sorry that you were alone when you passed. I'll never forgive myself for not being there with you, maybe you preferred for it to be that way, but I guess I'll never know. I'm sorry that I never got to say goodbye in person or cuddle or kiss you one last time like you deserved. But I know that you wont be mad at me, because I know that you know how much a I loved you, and by all the time you spent giving me kisses and cuddling up to me - I know you love me too. I'll remember the day we brought you home - We though that something was wrong with you because we couldn't feel you moving in the box! When we opened it up we were so surprised to find that you were asleep! Even back then you were so laid back and trusting. I'll remember the first time I gave pasta, I remember that you were so excited for it and you tried to eat it all in one go! I'll remember the first time you gave me kisses I thought that it was so weird since it had never happened to me before but I was so so happy that I picked you up and I gave you kisses too. I'll remember all the times you were so calm and let strangers - even my really young cousins hold you, you were so gentle and sweet that when they went home that day they asked their mum for a hamster too. I'll remember all the times you saw me and scratched at the side of your cage so I'd bring you out to play. I'll remember you being silly and trying to dig inside my housecoat pocket. I'll remember all the funny and cute ways you used to fall alseep and how you could literally fall asleep anywhere. I'll remember how whenever I cleaned your cage I'd let you play on my bed and you'd sit there and try and dig though the sheets. I'll remember last night, the last time that I saw you, I remember you sitting on my hand calmly eating a piece of my banana that I'd let you steal off me. I remember you giving me kisses and letting me stroke you. I'll remember your adorable little face looking up at me, I'll remember your beautiful shiny red eyes, and I'll remember your huge, wonderful, quirky, perfect, cheeky personality. But most of all I'll always remember how much I love you, and I know for sure I'll never forget it. Tomorrow I'll have to say goodbye to you for the final time, I know that I won't be able to say any of this to you in person so that's why I've written it here. My darling Bambi I love you so much, and I'll never forget you. I'm glad that you passed away in your sleep, comfy in your den. I'm sorry that I wasn't with you but I know that you're in a beautiful place now. Make sure you say hello to Misty for me, I know she'll take good care of you. I love you. I'll miss you. I think it'd be fitting to end this with some quotes from the movie that your named after, I think you'd like that. "I'm always with you. Even if you can't see me, I'm here." "Love is a song that never ends, life may be swift and fleeting. Hope may die, yet love's beautiful music comes each day like the dawn." "Everything in the forest has it's season. When one thing falls, another grows. Maybe not what was there before, but something new and wonderful all the same." Goodbye for now, Bambi, my sweet prince. 32077707_10215238312693059_1945968017309433856_n.jpg 32130404_10215238312293049_1128898120432746496_n.jpg 32399161_10215284669491950_5778785231553167360_n.jpg 32498193_10215284675012088_6425456411244756992_n.jpg 32440337_10215284673372047_4031306482128519168_n.jpg Last edited by souffle; 10-03-2018 at 08:21 AM.