Thank you to all of you for your well wishes and thoughts for sorry Lil. It really is so heart warming to read.
Today is the first day that it's properly sinking in that I won't see her again
I'm still coming into my room and glancing over to see her in her cage (I haven't been able to go through it yet) and still setting bits of vegetables aside for her when cooking dinner.
My partner and I are going to bury her on Saturday in nearby woodlands. She's currently 'on ice'. Sorry if that is distressing to hear.
It took me a long time before I could put her away there.
But it was the right choice to have time to prepare and both be available.
I'm hoping Saturday will help with how I'm feeling...