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It's only natural to feel that it was your fault, I think we all tend to blame ourselves when something goes wrong, when we lose hams we often feel we must have done something wrong even though there was clearly nothing we could have done differently, I think it's a part of the difficult grieving process but you couldn't have foreseen or prevented this from happening, lots of hams bar chew without incident & even when accidents happen it's very rare for something as tragic as this to happen, I know it's easier to say than do but try to accept that & not beat yourself up over it.